From 2012 to 2014 I photographed around my home in upstate New York, as well as in the southwest and Canada, to illustrate my pursuit of the genuine self.
When I step out the door to photograph, whether in my backyard or an unfamiliar landscape, my intentions are at first ambiguous. Like wandering through a dreamscape, meaning is not plainly present. As if my subconscious is speaking to me, visual themes begin to surface and a narrative becomes increasingly clear.
A broader perspective is intangible without the photographs’ creation and examination. With nature as my guide, I can see myself from the outside! This project is about being oneself completely, authentically, truly. How can it be done? Or, can it be done? By peering through to the surrounding landscape and those I hold dear, I have found several pieces to a greater puzzle. Surprisingly, their jagged edges fit together. It has become apparent that I am in hiding, but from what? Or rather, from whom do I shield my gaze?
I am making peace by accepting that I am not perfect. Maybe I will never be, but a broken tree can still be beautiful. These discoveries are enough to free me: To be myself completely, for now.