While I now call this place “home,” I am aware that my residency is transient, that I am simply a visitor. I have been in limbo ever since I moved away from my childhood home two decades ago. It was then that I first realized everything is temporary: innocence, homes, and life. From an adult perspective, I have come to recognize this constant shift through experience.
I still dream of a garden, of a place in which to be innocent again. The video piece, In Her Garden, connects past and present selves through footage from a childhood garden, a green space from adulthood, and a new, rainy day garden. Throughout the three sections, there is a call-and-response between a child and an adult voice, yearning for something beyond the garden of childhood.
Floating Petals is a set of handmade paper sculptures created from a selection of family photographs taken within my childhood garden, combined with dried flowers and plant matter from my parents' present-day garden. Once shredded, the fragments of photographs were brought back together to take on new form.
Like my set of paper sculptures, the accordion book is made of handmade paper created from family photographs combined with dried plant matter from my parents' present-day garden. Together, with petals of new and old, I have created my own gardens in which to explore.
With my childhood sanctuary literally razed and replaced, I find myself returning there in my mind, and in my work, searching for what has been lost in adulthood. By excavating remembered stories, dreams, family photographs and found objects, I have found that underneath the layers lies a deep desire for the refuge and freedom of imagination that I thought I would always have.